Stabbedinbed

What do scares me the most?

wake up with a cold pain,

intertwined in sheets

and not in your warm arms and lips.

Hoping for a long lost ride that are my nowdays

painfull days!

Why?...

Step inside to see more about this bothering

and attached piercing thoughts

The worst is beeing able to know that's all in my head

unfourtunately I always try to crawl to reality

but it's not that easy when you see HIM all the time

Have I lost my mind?

The ones around me always says "this is passion, it will be over soon!"

Still saying it to myself for so long!

I can't afford anymore all of this suffer

but the cicle... it's endless...

There is no meaning in this delicious and remarkable

feelings!

it's like holding an ember with a snowstorm howling inside myself

Yeah! you feel the cold inside because it's not real

and feel burning outside because it must be real!

I feel miserable sometimes...

I cry inside, because we're not mean to be together

I build myself powerful to break the inner cry

creating and pretending all the time

faking powers and stories

But in the end I back to the lack of you

not of your real you

but my real you!

It's so real when I dream about you and I...

but it's real!

I'm always beeing stabbed by regreat

And healed with your body and soul to the end of the dream!

As in dreams as in reality...

what's the difference?

I suspect that in reality we've never kissed

and in dreams I never knew you!