What do lasts for me?

"I don't know..." I wish I say those words!

But every time I look over my little well, he rises with his pretty smile...

Sometimes I wish we meet in a deeper way

I have a Feeling that you're always watching over me, but you're not willing for me as I desire you.

Everything about you makes me feel better, but moments later, you shatter my mind and break my bones till suddenly trow it all into the storm.

I beg for heaven or hell take me away from this thrilling life!

Losing memories would be a nice choice!

But I do not Own myself...

There are some in my life.

But YOU.... FUCK! You make me think of becoming numb in some asylum.

Far from my own... Closer to Gods and Devils.

I... the fool who waits for you to become one with me. The one who dream about your eyes.

I... who forget the laws of biology, psique and social behaviour; when you turn to me for a simple question.

So I wonder if in those moments you are telling me to wait, or just that we'll be only friends.

Today I hate beeing your friend!

Gods and Devils knows my melancholy when you say with other word that my tastes are disposeable and awful.

I shad a inner tear everytime I meet you with your girl!

Please... take me... someone!!!

NO ONE... no one will ever pick me up for a ride to blank lands, where I would erease you. Showering all my memories of you under a true love whaterfall.

And I would lose myself into another's arms to begin again.

Sincerly, I can't bare reality...
It hurts deep and I'm afraid to lose myself... Becoming numb forever!
Or maybe this is the salvation
The way to the other world's door!

I'm dieyng... So I hold the nurse's hand at every sunset and dawn.
Until my memories of you passes me by... slowly...

So scared to be alone...
So afraid to realise, that I'm already
All by myself inside this darkwell...
Drinking falling tears...
And always... always... thirsty for love.